| Making Connections |
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| 12:13am 26/08/2005 |
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So, lately I just seem to meet the most amazing, prolific people. Monday was pretty interesting-- spent half the day in the airport. Great place to meet people in and of itself. On the flight from Ft. Lauderdale to Tampa this 60 + yr old man strikes a conversation with me. He comments on my shoes and we end up talking for the entire flight about everything from fashion to housing bubbles to work.
In terms of work, this man works for a biomedical research company that has developed a vaccine for cancer. It has proven effective, but the FDA refuses to approve it. It's mind-boggling to imagine just how the face of healthcare will change if/when cures to cancer and AIDS will be approved. The market for chemo and radiation treatments will disappear. The market for such treatments is huge today-- and there is this resistance to approve a cure-all because the current treatment industry will suffer. It's sick. An industry fueled by human suffering.
It's also frustrating that the most innovative treatments can only be found in Europe. The price of good healthcare is simply too high for most. |
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| 12:54pm 18/08/2005 |
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1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. |
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| Found my next marathon! |
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| 02:01pm 15/08/2005 |
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Good God, these things are addictive:
http://active.com/event_detail.cfm?event_id=1241565
The marathon will start in Kitty Hawk with incredible views of the Albemarle Sound; skirt the base of the Wright Brothers Memorial in Kill Devil Hills; traverse lush Nags Head Woods Maritime Forest; wind through neighborhoods past the largest sand dune on the east coast at Jockey's Ridge State Park; span the Washington-Baum Bridge to Roanoke Island; and finish in Manteo’s Festival Park, home to the first English colonists. The Half Marathon will start at Jockey's Ridge and end in Festival Park.
If anyone wants to run with me, I have a place to stay. LEMME KNOW! |
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| I heart Dr. Phil |
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| 02:23pm 13/08/2005 |
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One side-effect of Oprah giving birth to Dr. Phil was the inevitable onslaught of I LOVE DR. PHIL merchandise and paraphernalia, the least of which can be described as pop philosophy or a self-help references. His web site boasts information "not necessarily created or approved by a certified mental health professional," and content "not created by Dr. Phil or any other certified mental health professional."
Who could resist a nickel-plated I LOVE DR. PHIL Accordion Tri-Fold Mini Photo Template Frame? What better way to help your emotionally distant father showcase embarrassing soccer portraits of you at age eleven. Look honey, it's you! In your stupid reversible jersey, chopped up bowl-cut hairdo and gawky, protruding headgear which makes your face look like a roller coaster. Only $15.99, plus shipping and fondling.
And hey mom, we can't forget about you. Everyone in our rinky-dink middle America huckleberry farming community knows you like to drive into town pitch-black, fall-down drunk. So here's an I LOVE DR. PHIL silver keychain, packaged in a gift box and suitable for your keys to the tractor, trailer, tractor-trailer, or all of the above. Ten bucks, guaranteed to make today a changing day in your life.
Dear Diary, what I wouldn't give for an I LOVE DR. PHIL spiral-bound notebook so I could jot down each and every last one of my own personal observations during Dr. Phil re-runs. And it's only twelve dollars. My goodness, how will I ever fill up eighty sheets of individually lined paper? Have that many original thoughts even occurred to me over the course of my entire life? Who cares! Add to cart! CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK HONK BONK DUH. |
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| I heart nerds |
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| 08:45am 10/08/2005 |
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Hand-Raiser
You are 71% Rational, 100% Extroverted, 28% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant. |
You are the Hand-Raiser, that annoying kid in class who always had an
answer for everything. No doubt, as a child you probably sat in the
front of the class, anxiously waving your hand back and forth in the
air while your teacher desperately tried to avoid calling on you
because you were the ONLY fucking kid that answered her questions.
Clearly, the key traits of your personality are your rationality and
your extroversion. You are like a little talkative calculator, in other
words. You also tend to be rather gentle and less arrogant than most
people. So what is your defect, then? Well, you're boring, and when
you're not boring, you are just plain annoying with your ultra-logical
responses and constant need to talk to others. So keep waving that hand
in the air, son. I'm still not calling on you. You are too logical, you
talk too much, and your humility and gentleness only makes me hate you
more, because they make me feel like I almost SHOULDN'T hate you. But I
do. Big time.
To put it less negatively:
1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.
2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.
3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.
4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.
Compatibility:
Your exact opposite is the Brute.
Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Braggart, the Haughty Intellectual, and the Robot.
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If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you
could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42%
Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is
close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well.
Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can
determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored
near fifty percent for certain traits.
The other personality types:
The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.
The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.
The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.
The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.
The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. |  |
My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 55% on Rationality | | You scored higher than 95% on Extroversion | | You scored higher than 25% on Brutality | | You scored higher than 20% on Arrogance |
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| Vicarious Living |
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| 12:59am 10/08/2005 |
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3 months out of college... what does one learn? BEING AN ENGLISH MAJOR IS A WASTE OF TIME! WHY DID I GO TO SCHOOL TO LEARN TO READ MEDIEVAL LITERATURE? WHEN THE HELL WILL MY EXTENSIVE KNOWLEDGE OF THE WIFE OF BATH COME IN HANDY? On the plus side, I can diagram any sentence you throw my way--- a skill that will come in handy when I'm on a job interview.
Speaking of job interviews, I have one coming up on Friday. Advice needed. When the interviewer asks, "What's your biggest weakness?", what should I say? As it turns out, admitting to having slippery fingers when it comes to office supplies is a BAD thing. Also, uncontrollable flatulence is a bad thing to mention.
Okay, so back to the topic of me wasting my life on an English degree. If I could turn back time... I'd spend it all on you... I'd take back those words that hurt you... WHOOPS, I got sidetracked. Anyway, if I could turn back time, I'd have gone into nursing. I am so jealous of my friends who are nurses. They have the best stories. The only reason I want a job at all is so I can have stories and experiences to go in my Nobel Prize-winning novels. Nurses have the best stories. They also have the worst stories. Best and worst are interchangeable in this sense. Scar-scar told me about a woman who came into the hospital because her fingers were turning blue. The woman was a raging alcoholic and injected alcohol straight into her veins. Her fingers were turning blue because they were oxygen deprived and dying. That sort of thing just doesn't happen in the Now newsroom.
Hindsight is 50/50. I'll have to live vicariously through my nurse friends. |
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| Many regrets |
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| 12:26am 10/08/2005 |
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This post is dedicated to regrets. Oh, the many regrets that we have in life. My regrets include the following:
*Being an English major
*Being a pushover at times
*Being too eager to please
*Bathing infrequently
*Being unromantic
*Stealing pint glasses from random Raleigh bars
My biggest regret, however, is that I don't have enough regrets. Who wants to go on a Vegas gambling spree or a wild riot with me? Anyone up for cross-country hitch-hiking shenanigans? I WANT MORE REGRETS.
Please feel free to share your best regrets with me. |
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| Are you FUNNY? |
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| 02:13am 31/07/2005 |
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the Wit
(60% dark, 21% spontaneous, 16% vulgar) | your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK
You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean you're
pretentious. You realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the
Simpsons' philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor
and most other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.
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guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the
perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer. Your sense of humor
takes the most effort to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my
opinion.
Also, you probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm
talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/.
PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais |  |
My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 66% on dark | | You scored higher than 1% on spontaneous | | You scored higher than 11% on vulgar |
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| 10:29pm 04/07/2005 |
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A is for - Age: 22
B is for - Bust Size: 36B
C is for - Career: Assignment Editor of a nightly news program, Waitress
D is for - Dad's name: Harry
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: Crocodile Mile
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Don't Phunk W/My Heart, Black Eyed Peas
G is for - Guys you've kissed: probably around 20-30
H is for - Hometown: Warrenton, NC
I is for - Instruments you play: pianno, keyboard, triangle
J is for - Job title: Assignment Editor
K is for - Kids: Is the 56th trimester too late to abort?
L is for - Live with: My life partners, Jessica and Amy
M is for - Mom's name: Holly
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: approx. 8 million
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: none
P is for - Phobia[s]: dentures, rodents
Q is for - Quote: "A can of Aquanet a day keeps the hairdresser away."
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: Jessica and I have been a couple for 4 years now.
S is for - Sexual position: I'm just happy when I'm awake to experience it.
T is for - Time you wake up: 7 AM
U is for - Unusual talent: projectile vomiting on command
V is for - Vegetable you love: red peppers
W is for - Worst habit: Eating after the dog
X is for - X-rays you've had: ankle
Y is for - Yummy food you make: Guacamole
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Gemini |
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| Favorite Songs |
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| 10:20pm 18/06/2005 |
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mood:  exhausted
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List your current six favorite songs, then pick six other people that have to do the same.
1. Black Eyed Peas- Phunk With My Heart
2. Etta James- At Last
3. Pearl Jam- Black
4. OutKast- Bombs Over Baghdad
5. Ashanti- Only U
6. Ashanti- Thank You
White people suck. With the exception of Eddie Vedder. Ow ow. I would be his band-aid. He is hands-down the sexiest man on earth. |
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| Relationship Blahs |
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| 08:40pm 10/06/2005 |
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It's very nice to be in a relationship where you almost never argue with your sig other. Unless, however, you never argue because both parties are so non-confrontational that they ignore all problems in an effort to keep things mellow and happy. In 21-month relationship, there are so many, many issues that we have never talked about that I talk about candidly with others. He won't discuss political things with me because he knows we'll disagree. We never talk about the future or things in the long-term. I don't know if he wants to get married and have children in his lifetime. Trust me, I've asked. It's just so unfulfilling to invest time in a relationship that never delves deeper. Sometimes I feel as though I'm dating a total stranger because we are both so non-confrontational. |
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| I heart alcomohol! |
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| 10:33pm 16/03/2005 |
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Bacardi 151
Congratulations! You're 134 proof, with specific scores in beer (80) , wine (100), and liquor (104). |
All right. No more messing around. Your knowledge of alcohol is so high
that you have drinking and getting plastered down to a science. Sure,
you could get wasted drinking beer, but who needs all those trips to
the bathroom? You head straight for the bar and pick up that which is
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 75% on proof | | You scored higher than 94% on beer index | | You scored higher than 94% on wine index | | You scored higher than 98% on liquor index |
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| On the subject of Love |
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| 03:27pm 06/03/2005 |
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mood:  cranky music: Love and Happiness- Al Green
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Ok, just curious here. Is there a difference between a sig other saying, "I love you" and "I am so in love with you"?
Explain why or why not. Please elaborate. I know this is different based on the individual, but I don't really care. Pretend you represent everyone in the world. |
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| 10 credit hours left to go! |
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| 09:51am 10/01/2005 |
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God, it feels good to be close to graduation. The scary thing is the fact that I'll be looking for jobs soon. Honestly, it's very doubtful that I'll be in Raleigh next year. It's looking like I'll have to move to po-dunk Mississippi to get a job with my level of experience. I'm not sweating it, but I'll be sad to leave Raleigh.
It's also kind of irritating. . . my lease ends on May 1, but I don't graduate until May 14. I guess I'll be couch-hopping for a few days. A little nerve-wracking there! If anyone will have a spare couch for a couple of weeks, let me know! |
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| What have I been doing with my life? |
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| 11:56pm 26/12/2004 |
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2004: A year in review...
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I was truly happy for an extended period of time. Those periods of darkness and depression that usually leave me sitting alone in my room dreading the world around me seemed to disappear. I also lived outside of North Carolina for the first time. Oooh, and I snowskiied. Best decision ever. Oooh ooh! And I drank legally. HOLLER!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have never made a resolution because I can never think of anything that I really want to improve upon that much. Of course, I figure that if it's something that I should start in the New Year, then it's something that I should have been working on before the New Year as well.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ashleigh
4. Did anyone close to you die?
A few.
5. What countries did you visit?
none :( I've never left the US. Does anyone want to sponsor a young, blonde chick for a cruise around the world?
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Breasts. Maybe I can hit a growth spurt.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 23, 2004. It was the day I flew back to Raleigh from Houston. Don't get me wrong, I loved Houston and my friends from TFA, but I missed blue skies, green grass, and clean air so much that the sight of Raleigh that evening was the most beautiful sight I have ever witnessed.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being strong for my parents when they were going through a rough time. Being there for my mom and dad after my dad's accident was one of the hardest things I've had to do. It's so difficult to see my dad, a big burly guy, so vulnerable and in so much pain.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Probably French 202. I forgot to study. WHOOPS!
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yeah, I got the norovirus from Rob. 2 days of nonstop puking and diarrhea. I blacked out from dehydration.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I bought those slinky eyeball glasses for my dad to wear to his doctor's appointment. Thank god he has a great sense of humor. I was afraid he'd be a little offended.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Almost everyone I know does something that redeems them in some way. Laurie Smith, my landlord, for not being mad when Christine forgot to pay rent while I was in Texas.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Maybe the person who came into the Oyster Bar and told me that he wanted to sit in my section so he could stiff me on the tip. Thanks asshole. Way to be a complete jerk. I don't go out of my way to be mean to people and I just ask that others give me the same consideration.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Paying for rent when my roommate was unable to.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Porn, Houston, UNC-TV, and snowskiing. That sport is addictive.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
the skeet skeet song. It was the theme song of Kensington Park 2816-203.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier. I feel much more comfortable with my future and my personal identity.
ii. thinner or fatter? 15 pounds thinner. Maybe this is part of why I'm happier.
iii. richer or poorer? about the same
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
More traveling! Less work. I worked 30-40 hours per week while taking 16 credit hours in school this past semester and I barely got to see my friends. I missed having a social life. Oooh, and drinking. More drinking would have been great.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Gay porn flicks. And work.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Warren County then back at the Oyster Bar to make some bling.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
I'm too jaded to "fall in love". At least right now. I love Rob, but our relationship is too gradual for me to say that I FELL in love.
23. How many one-night stands?
I had a dream that I had sex with Bob Barker. I'm sure that counts for something.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Dr. Phil. Seriously. I don't really watch TV. If I'm at Rob's I'll watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force or Family Guy, but I'm not really motivated to watch TV these days.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes. I started hating our manager at work because he became a bigger dickhead.
26. What was the best book you read?
The second Bridget Jones' Diary.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Greater appreciation for OutKast and Beyonce.
28. What did you want and get?
I always get what I want. Probably the Chippendale strippers.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
This is embarassing, but Team America.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 21. I went to East Village and PB's and got so trashed that the bouncer had to carry me out of the bar. WHOOPS! I don't remember getting violently ill though.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A Kerry victory. A vibrator.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Bowtie, suspenders, tuxedo pants. :( I hate the Oyster Bar.
34. What kept you sane?
Beer. Friends. Gus.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Martha Stewart.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Abortion. ABORTIONS FOR ALL!!!
37. Who did you miss?
my KP neighbors when everyone started moving.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Jesus. I invited him into my heart and he brought a watermelon as a housewarming gift. Then my heart got indigestion and puked all over the place.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
If you open your heart, you may get hurt, but if you never open up then you'll never truly live.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"When I think about you I touch myself." |
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| 12:11am 14/12/2004 |
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I don't know what's scarier: moving or staying.
Moving to a new city sounds like the most awesome thing in the world. I am really, really ready to move. I want change. I'm afraid of settling into a worthless existence here in Raleigh. I also want to challenge myself to make the most out of my future and my career.
At the same time, I'm afraid to throw away things that I have here. It's so hard to leave friends and family behind. It's hard to leave the school and people that you've grown so close to. It's hard to explain to a boyfriend that you are leaving. Long distance doesn't work out.
One of my biggest problems is that I am like Amelie or the girl in the painting from the boat party by Renoir. She's looking off into the distance while everyone else is partying and having a blast. No matter where I am, I'd rather be elsewhere. There are too many hard decisions to make in life, and regardless of my decisions, there are always going to be reasons for me to regret those decisions. Every choice comes with a consequence. How depressing. |
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